And, now

my friend’s husband died today. My other friend lost her battle with breast cancer yesterday. What is this?? Advertisements

Lies we’re told

there is no dignity in dying. Wishing I could find whoever told me that bullshit and beat him with several rolls of quarters. I hate watching him suffer. God, if you love him, if you love us, won’t you please take him home??


they are putting him in hospice. The icu Doctor says he’s done all he can. Want to feel angry? Try and understand the fairness of your mother-in-law facing widowhood. I’m so mad at God right now. Just, why? no comments, please. I don’t want any esoteric, theological, well-meaning explanations about His priorities, or plans, or … More ?


How do you explain death to a three-year-old? I have a feeling I’ll be doing that very soon, and I don’t even know where to start. Pray. And think of my family.

Checking in…

I’d rather be reading “The Yellow Wallpaper,” but I need Mia to GET OFF MY BACK, so I’m posting. Honestly, she’s right. Not only do we have an agreement, I need to write and sort through all of what’s been happening lately. Well, I’ll attempt to sort through some of this. And even more honestly, … More Checking in…

A moment

i am standing in the sunlight in Austin. The warmth is delicious, and after being diagnosed with anxiety and depression, I’m happy to take this time between sessions at the conference I’m attending. That’s all, and that’s enough: to be warm, bask in the mayhem of traffic on the street, traffic I’m only observing not … More A moment

A Mean Mommy

I’m stressed out, and I’m tired, and I’m mean. Today, I have asked my mother not to fuss at me. In turn, I’ve fussed at my both my husband and child. I have grades to complete, and a syllabus to plan, and report card comments to write, and a house to clean, and this stupid … More A Mean Mommy