is being underwater disconnected from everything and everyone wondering where the joy in your life has disappeared to.
is watching one of your favorite comedians and having one-tenth of your brain think the joke is funny but the other nine-tenths not being able to work up enough emotion to care.
is dreading having to back to a job you love but one you increasingly hate and feel stifled in and not being able to shrug off the desolation even though you’re halfway through the school year.
is wondering if you’ve lost all faith and trust in God as loved one after loved one dies with three passing away one after the other in a matter of days.
is reading your bible but not believing what it says because how can you believe what it says when you feel like God stopped listening and this bone crushing pain/fatigue/mind numbingness won’t go away no matter what you do.